This is not okay. They should be sorting this out for you and I'm so sorry they aren't. Your CPN sounds too unreliable and I wonder if it would be worth requesting a change. Would you be able to get in touch with your psych? It sounds like she really wants things to be okay for you. It also sounds like you need a clear and specific crisis plan because the crisis team say to call if you're at imminent risk of suicide, acknowledge that self harm is not suicide, but also acknowledge that your self harm is life-threatening so the end result could be the same anyway. So you need to know where to get help when you're at risk of self harm, if that makes sense.
I guess my suggestion is to get in touch with you psych? Or the duty worker from the CMHT. And remember you can always make an emergency GP appt, ring 111 or out of hours, or go to A&E or call the crisis team.
I'm so sorry things are this crap for you Emma, I really hope it eases up.
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