Thank you for replying, it does help that there is someone that can relate.
I know how it is with the panic attacks, I'm so nervous with everything and jumpy with little noises when left alone at night (when he works).I know exactly what you mean with wishing he would say it, I know my bf is getting sick of it and I feel like I am making him sick and stressed but he keeps it together mostly.
My partner booked me an appointment at the doctors for Monday as I couldn't bring myself to pick up the phone and go for that help myself. I know I've needed help for a while but like you I thought I'd try fix myself but now that I can see I'm affecting him I want to try something to help me.
Can completely understand where you're coming from with trying to take everything into consideration with what your partner does for you and try not to be irritated by little things, it's so horrible to feel like that about someone you love.
It is horrible and scary to get so randomly angry, I can definitely relate to that, it just kinda appears from something so small that hits a nerve which never really existed before. Yeah, I don't know if I could put up with it, but in the same respect, I've put up with A LOT from his side of the family, not him as such and I guess some of that is to blame for my anxiety but I would never blame him. I am incredibly grateful my boyfriend is still around because without him I really have no support at all, even though I feel like I lack support in some senses, he is all I have.
I'm definitely going to work at getting better and I do have an appointment to see a doctor about it all in a few days to help myself and help not take anything out on others around me
Thank you so much for your advice, I don't think I could have asked for a better answer. I hope that your treatment goes well and you feel better in yourself soon, I'd love to know how it goes and how you are getting on.
We will get where we want to be.
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