Originally Posted by
Lone Star
Welcome back to the forum.
I understand what you're going through. I stopped SI for someone else too. A lot of people have told me that the worst thing you can do is stop for someone else and not for yourself, but in those conditions if you don't have anyone that cares for you or wants to see you do better, it's hard. Honestly, just having a support system is better than having nothing. Glad you were able to stop.
As far as the urges go, it's hard... I've been clean for 3 years but it's been one hell of a roller coaster ride. Funny thing is there's not a day that goes by that I think about throwing it all away.
Hope your day gets better and hope that the urges go away. Looking forward to see some threads from ya :)
Thanks! And congratulations, three years is an amazing accomplishment! I'm hoping that the further along I get, the more I'll not want to throw it away and I'll be able to deal with the urges better? But you've shown that roller coaster what for by being clean for three years, well done!
And yeah, that's the way I look at it - it's not ideal to be doing it for someone else, but it's better than the alternative. And thank you, I'm feeling a bit better after hanging around RYL for a bit. I think I've made the right choice by coming back here. And I look forward to seeing you around, too!
