Recovery for me is pretty much being able to cope and manage stressful situations and emotions without resorting to destructive actions [ie SH or otherwise] it's also being able to manage my mental illnesses in a way that doesn't require resorting to anything harmful.
I'm still working on dealing with stress and so forth in a healthy way but have noticed that my first thing I think about when stressed is more often then not, NOT something self destructive anymore. there are some things still that I need to work on in terms of recovery and I am and there are days where I still slip up and there will probably be more days like that in the future but I've noticed that I have more "slips" then I have "full scale relapses" [be it SI or other] lately.
I also prefer not to count days free for myself because I find that it leads to me inadvertently putting a lot more pressure on myself which leads to a relapse. [this is just me though] I find that if I don't mark days free and so on that I'm less anxious and feel less pressured to not disappoint people.
I'm not sure if that's weird :/
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