Thank you, Sarah. I'm sorry. I know I moan a lot. I am tired and likely hormonal, which is not helping how I feel about things right now. Women and periods, eh?
The Clopixol was only increased about a month ago, so I don't know whether the psychiatrist would be willing, especially as my CPN reported an improvement to him. Less preoccupied, apparently. I am, I guess, but I'm unsure as to whether that's a good thing or not.
I've had the schizoaffective diagnosis explained to me before. It's because they think I hear voices that aren't there and have "unhelpful beliefs" or whatever term they're using on that day. Just because beliefs are not helpful does not make them untrue, right? I do sometimes get a bit caught up in them, and that I guess is what is particularly unhelpful. I haven't been too bad recently though. I've also had mixed up thoughts in the past, like thoughts floating away, but who doesn't get that when they're tired/stressed/worried?
A second opinion might be a good idea, but I worry about having to go through the same questions that i've been through a million times before. What if they came up with the same conclusion? What if they thought something worse? It's not the diagnosis I'm really that concerned with, more that I'm taking medication that could well be unnecessary. Time is a great healer and if things had been left for a while, they might have improved anyway.
I work in a pharmacy. Physician heal thyself.
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