That's always an awful position to find yourself in.... can you use it as motivation to get better so you can say a big **** you to the abuser by getting your life back on track? I'm sorry you're struggling with memories too.
We watched an episode of criminal minds last night which had a pedophile in it an he reminded me of one of the men who hurt me, right down the the creepy state and faux kind voice. I know I should have stopped watching it but I thought it'd be okay. Turns out it affected meore than I thought and I can't get their faces out of my mind, the feelings of their hands off my body.
I feel very trapped.
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