I can't thank you enough lovely, but I can't maintain yet. I can barely survive this insane shrieking in my head; the anxiety..... I can't live like this. I have the supplement drinks and I will do my best with them but the fear I feel with them.... when I last had them all I remember is the horrible full feeling. Being forced to drink them; forced to eat the toast... the horrible full shame.... the tears.... every day and noone ever spoke to me about what it was. In a way they still don't. No diagnosis fits. I'm barely making it through the thoughts. I had a cup of tea with a friend and we both talked some. That helped but the trauma is eating.... eating anything and I can't avoid it. I will take the supplements though and will start to use the plan a couple of days a week. So far as I know I'm safe but the doctor didn't check anything and noone but me checks my weight. I don't think they believe me and I don't blame them
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