*tear*
Never ask a question that
1) You already know the answer to
and
2) You don't really want to KNOW the answer to
Thanks for the advice y'all, I know you're right...I just...
God, I'm such an idiot. I'm...I don't know, scared (?) to tell him...I'm not looking forward to the questions, especially the 'why' question. I don't KNOW why...I needed to do something so I did it. I thought about it the entire drive home from my aunts (45 min)...I think maybe even before that. I got home and calmly did it. Then went about the rest of my night.
And I don't want him to freak out on me or anything...if asked if I would do it again I'd have to say I don't know...maybe...probably. Then what's going to happen?
*tear* just thinking about it makes me want to cut...or take too many pills again :s
How in the world did I get so ****ed up? And why does God make me continue in this life like this?
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