It sounds to me that you are on the road to recovery. The binging thoughts will always come back but if you have a strong mindset about how you want to live your life (which is to be healthy), I think this can be overcome.
I overcame bulimia more than 15 years ago and till this day, I still think about purging. I gained about 10kgs after i stopped and then lost more than 10kgs over a period of years. I have managed to maintain my weight for the past 4 years.
I have your same mentality which is to be healthy and also reward my body. I do binge but it is only occasionally and I would compensate by eating a salad the next day or exercising.
It's still good that you talk to your doctor about it. Very proud of you!
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