I do keep lists of what I've done, but I suppose I will have to put more emphasis on them as it's currently not enough.
Thank you for your reply, it helped a little in knowing I'm not entirely alone. I wrote a letter to my gf because she doesn't listen to me when I talk. I am concerned that she is in on the plot to make me kill myself, I mean, these thoughts don't even feel entirely real, but real enough to be bothering me and not go away, but like I'm being manipulated into a corner so that I kill myself.
In the letter I told her that I'd rather she was honest with me and just dumped me instead of going along with their plans and whatnot. I don't want to feel like this, I wish they'd just leave me the **** alone.
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