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Les · 26-11-2007, 12:22 AM

i feel numb, and at the same time i feel too much. i think im depressed because my appetite sucks.

i am struggling with the reason i SI. everyone says my childhood abuse is why, but i cant connect the two. all i can think is that in some form i hate myself. i talk to my mother, who abused me, now normally and its like nothing ever happened. am i just suppressing it so much that i cant even tell?

is it possible that my si is just related to my mental illness (bipolar)?

i cant wrap my mind around it.
les.

26-11-2007, 12:22 AM	#7
Les CareBearLes Join Date: Sep 2007 Location: Pittsbugh PA I am currently:	i feel numb, and at the same time i feel too much. i think im depressed because my appetite sucks. i am struggling with the reason i SI. everyone says my childhood abuse is why, but i cant connect the two. all i can think is that in some form i hate myself. i talk to my mother, who abused me, now normally and its like nothing ever happened. am i just suppressing it so much that i cant even tell? is it possible that my si is just related to my mental illness (bipolar)? i cant wrap my mind around it. les.
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