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Feel like it'd be better if I wasn't here **possibly triggering**
So I self harmed last night. For the first time in over a year. And today I feel so shitty about myself. I feel like I don't deserve to be a mother. Like I'm not good enough. I'm not cut out for this. I don't think I was ever meant to be a mum. My little boy would be better off without me I think. There's nothing I can do for him that someone else couldn't do instead. He's only 1.5yrs old. He wouldn't even remember me if I just slipped away. Why would he want to remember me? I wish I could just slip behind the curtain backstage, out through the stage door without anyone noticing. Nobody needs me here.
Sorry, just had to get that out.
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