My friends are concerned, but support me in the right way. They listen and one has even said I don't eat enough to lose weight so I have upped my calories- and even though I intend to lose I do have a lot more energy. I'm not drastically underweight- in reality. I'm just a small person. I can see why my friends would worry, but I can also identify that I am now aware how much I was undereating by. I'm struggling with eating more but my energy is better. My counsellor says essentially by counting the calories I am swapping one addiction/obsession for another. I told her I'm just trying to work out how to do this but I am enjoying going running again and having energy for it. Perhaps that will be my saving grace. I'm still feeling very pressured though and so much is going on in my head about my family; my partner.... controlling food at least makes it go quiet
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