Running away won't help. You sadly can't run away from yourself and your thoughts. I am wondering if you could call a confidential helpline like the samaratines? They can't trace you or break confidentiality. Maybe just to 'test the water' and see how you feel afterwards? At least then you get to tell someone?
If you feel it was minor, the likelihood is you won't get into trouble over it. It is a lot of work (and money) for the police to do historical investigations. It is unlikely to happen, Although I am not a police officer or anything to do with the law so am not 100% sure.
You are not evil. Thoughts are thoughts. Seriously a lot of people have bad thoughts that maybe include hurting people in some way and so on. Like I said, if you aren't acting on them then it is ok and not evil.
I really do think you need to say something to someone. Even if you make a separate RYL account? I know some people do that.
And then people won't see you differently because they won't know it is you.
Are you afraid that once you say whatever it is you are admitting it to yourself/that you won't be able to hide behind it anymore?
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