I don't know what to do I feel so unsafe I am really upset I can't stop thinking about it all I saw the Doctor who says after therapy it will all be okay cos I will have dealt with it but it wont cos I will be exposed and people will know how evil and dirty I am I feel trapped into talking everyone says its the only thing I can do and need to do it so I can start to get better. I'll never get better if this doesn't go away. I'm so scared I will have to kill myself if I talk so either way its all going to go wrong. What am I meant to do? I wanted to stay at my friends house cos I am so unsafe I don't want to its very risky and I'll be letting people and myself down but my friend pointed out its not fair of me to stay with her and I feel awful I feel totally alone with this but can't let anyone in. I am terrified of what I'm going to do to myself I need help.
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