Hey darlin, as others have said you have done really well to be nearly 3 months free.... I think that is one of the hardest times and you've proved you can do it.
You said that you weren't feeling happy about it, why do you keep thinking about it? If you have found yourself being able to live without it, do you try and enjoy lifes moments?
What makes you paranoid sweetheart?
I think what you are feeling is normal to a degree, certainly. SH is something we use to cope and if we don't find another way before we give it up... it can be tough. Also I think it isn't just about living without SH/SI but living life. I think that it will always pop up in future situations, but you build strength and courage to shut it out from your mind faster.
It sounds as though your fiance is fantastic, do speak to him about your concerns so you don't have to deal with them on your own or feel as though you have to hide them from him.
We are always here though of course.
Take care hun,
Chloe xx
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