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sherlock holmes · 10-10-2014, 09:53 PM

The turning point for me was realising that I hated being the way I was. I'd been in hospital for nearly two years and I was told I'd be a long term hospital patient due to my illness and behaviours. I was losing my life to being ill and I was sick of it. I threw myself into therapy and actively did everything I could to shaking off the 'patient' mindset and finding my identity.

Then I finally got the correct diagnosis, the correct medication, saw a great psychiatrist and CPN. But it was me who put the hard work in and yes it was really tough, but looking back I am so glad I decided to do it.

I'm not 100% recovered and don't think I ever will be, but I've gone from being suicidal all of the time and self harming severely and generally living in hospital to not self harming any more, given up smoking, not attempted suicide in at least 6 years, started a degree, looking for a job, out of hospital for 6 years.

SOmetimes it does feel like a daily battle with your own mind, but you need to remind yourself of why you are fighting it.

10-10-2014, 09:53 PM	#7
sherlock holmes do you like my potato? Join Date: Mar 2004	The turning point for me was realising that I hated being the way I was. I'd been in hospital for nearly two years and I was told I'd be a long term hospital patient due to my illness and behaviours. I was losing my life to being ill and I was sick of it. I threw myself into therapy and actively did everything I could to shaking off the 'patient' mindset and finding my identity. Then I finally got the correct diagnosis, the correct medication, saw a great psychiatrist and CPN. But it was me who put the hard work in and yes it was really tough, but looking back I am so glad I decided to do it. I'm not 100% recovered and don't think I ever will be, but I've gone from being suicidal all of the time and self harming severely and generally living in hospital to not self harming any more, given up smoking, not attempted suicide in at least 6 years, started a degree, looking for a job, out of hospital for 6 years. SOmetimes it does feel like a daily battle with your own mind, but you need to remind yourself of why you are fighting it.
	Isn’t it funny how day by day nothing changes but when you look back, everything is different… you once called your brain a hard drive, well say hello to the virus.