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Thanks Beckie.

The voices have been bad for nearly 2 months now and I am getting sick to death of it. Hence why I am thinking of asking for clozapine tablets (I know my psych has the final word) whereas I have been against clozapine in the past (my psych suggested it over 3 years ago). At first I thought my bad voices was due to stress, but I am not stressed now and my voices are pretty intensive.

I said both to the hearing voices group and the nurse who came today that when I see my cpn next I will ask for an increased depot (by 100 mg, not the 200 mg my psych wants). But I am scared that it will cause increased hunger and I know that it will take time for it to work. Hence me preferring tablets because I can change it easier if the dosage isnt right or the side effects become unbearable.

Plus with tablets I can see my cpn less. It's not because she has annoyed me or doesnt provide a good standard of care, it's the opposite! I am doing so well that I feel that I dont need her any more. I dont feel ready to be discharged, but I would like to see her less which is impractical with depots.

The only thing that scares me also is that I read that clozapine was for people with treatment resistant schizophrenia, and I dont think that my schizophrenia is treatment resistant (since being on clopixol I have improved tons). I am also worried about weight gain, I am already morbidly obese so I cannot afford to pile on any more weight.