Gran,
11 years today, it was. I was just an innocent little child, who had no idea what was going on. But I remember it all so clearly. I remember that was the one and only time that dad actually hugged me. It feels weird remembering that. Him hugging me. It's like he's a stranger or something.
I wish you were still here with us now. Looking after me. Protecting me. It's not fair! You shouldn't have died. It should have been me. And now it seems as though I'm dying in a similar way to how you did.
I need you here with me.
Dad needs you here with him.
You're his strength.
If you were here, in person, I could tell him about all this **** and you could help him through.
I'm not strong enough for the both of us anymore.....
We're going out tonight
All 3 of us
And we're going to have a good tme and I'm not going to let dad get all mopey or anythng
I'm going to have nice shower now and then I'm going to walk over to visit you
It's raining stupidly but I'm going anyways
Maybe I'll buy you some fresh flowers
Try and neaten up your grave as best as I can
11 years
I can hardly believe it
I love you and miss you....
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