Hey, wonderful idea for a thread Soph!
It still feels strange to say that I've recovered but I guess that's what I am :P
I struggled with insomnia from around the age of 6/7 - but depression from the age of 12. I'm now 25. I finally got help with my self-harm suicidal thoughts and depression along with the insomnia when I was 22. It was the hardest decision I had to make. However, I'd struggled with self-harm, suicide attempts and depression alone for 10 years and I needed someone to help me out of it.
The couple of years following that I was in and out of hospitals because of suicide attempts, picked up by police in various places and drinking heavily, but I was also getting support with medication, CBT, DBT, counselling etc.
Up until last year I genuinely thought I wouldn't live to see my 25 birthday, and was harming myself or ending up in hospital every couple of days at least. All of my family told me they thought I was going to end up dead. So did my friends. Even the MH team didn't think I'd see the end of the year. I was almost sectioned because of a suicide plan.
So, to sum up, having been through too many traumas to write out here, and having seen what rock bottom is really like, I can officially say I am recovered from SH and suicidal thoughts. Yes, the depression sometimes pokes it's head up but it doesn't stick around for long. Having lost my job, house, boyfriend, friends and hobbies; I'm now back on track.
I left Uni in my third year, but I'm studying a degree with Open University. I am getting my friends back slowly. I now mentor a number of people locally. I am a Supporter on here. I have a job I enjoy. I'm in a happy relationship. All in all, I'm pretty damn lucky to be where I am. I wouldn't change what I've been through because I know how strong I am now is because of it.
I am also over 18 months SH free and suicide attempts free :)
You can do this!
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