I have gone back and forth on whether to update this... I feel like such a fucking drama queen but i am really not coping. And i don't have a clue what to do about it. I should probably call someone but i feel like i'll just be hearing the same things over again and they didn't help before so they probably won't help now and then i'll just be wasting someone's time and i'm also sick of listening to myself so....
I really don't know what to do. I can't sleep, i can't eat, i can't for the life of me get my head to shut up. I'm beginning to get desperate for something, anything, a small relief of some sort. Just for a few hours so i could breathe again.
My body is so tense from the anxiety and i have a constant headache. And everything is just a mess and i feel like a tsunami of sadness came and washed over my life. I can't sleep, have barely slept for a month and everything makes me want to cry.
Sorry for being a whiny bastard.... I just didn't feel i had anywhere else to go with this...
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