I know this is an old thread. And I don't have more story to write, but... I just wanted to say that I miss him. I've seen other counselors, and I've gotten a lot better at talking. And maybe even if I saw him again it wouldn't be as helpful or special because I'm in such a different place now. But I miss him and the probably-very-one-sided relationship we had. He meant so much to me.
I wish I had a way to thank him. I guess that's what these little stories tried to do. Or the pictures I drew. I never did thank him. I was way too uncomfortable with my own voice to offer up something that personal. But... thank you. That's what I want to say. Thank you Adam for creating a safe place for me where I was Seen and Heard in ways I hadn't been before.
I don't know what would've happened if I had another bad experience with counseling that year, but as it was, I've been able to move forward and see other counselors and learn other things about coping skills and my thoughts and talking about my feelings. I think I've come pretty far actually, from that year. Some ups, some downs, and certainly not Recovered completely, but... better in some really important ways. I'm glad I wrote all that down. It's allowed me to hold onto those times. I just wish I could make sure he knew he helped me, because I worry I may not have given him that impression. But he did. He helped me a lot.
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