[mousetrousers]

Has been such a wild ride in my head this last week. Have been suicidal (thank God for blunt knives, gives you thinking time), huddled and rocking in a corner, absolutely furious at the world and my 'so called' care team, ashamed and guilty that I'm here at all - suffering with this ed while my family watches.
So glad I can now say positively I WANT TO GET BETTER! I have been given some definitive steps to take and I am, one day and one meal at a time, taking steps along my recovery road. I have had to face my control issues and the painful realisation that absolutely everything else in my life was in a huge mess because I couldn't even see it any more. The only thing I focused on was my ed. So, NO MORE! I have stopped counting and weighing everything that goes in. First step, but a massive one.