my bf knows some of it but i feel like a burden to him to tell him too much.
my sister died at 17 a year ago this month and i have a lot of abuse in my childhood im just now remembering and realizing and there's a lot of stuff i cant even pinpoint that i feel like is just wrong.
and then the issues eating, ive eaten two meals today and feel horribly guilty... it makes me want to SI which i havent done yet today, for the first time in three or four days. its just all a never ending cycle that makes me question my existence in general.
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