I can sympathise with your fears (I worry too) and I think it's because, like you, I feel that my intelligence is the only (positive) thing I have. But there are so many more qualities that make us special, and make us human.
Intelligence isn't a transient thing, and it won't just disappear. Sometimes medications can be sedating or cause a mind fog or cognitive issues, but these are almost always temporary. There are very, very few, things, short of a head injury or trauma or stroke or something, that affect intelligence and you are probably the smartest person I know.
Are you experiencing clear cognitive issues at the moment, or are these worries fears for future?
You say you can't cope with CBT and abstract concepts, but OCD isnt rooted in logical thinking - by nature, these illnesses aren't logical. Are you able to manage ocd thoughts with logical thinking like a list of all possible outcomes with likelihoods?
Where are things at with uni? I've had a pretty hit-and-miss time with different unis and different courses, and sometimes it's little things that can make a big difference. What would make a big difference wiht the uni?
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