Don't give up on yourself and what you've achieved. Sounds like things are really tough for you right now, but try your best to relieve the stress through something healthy, like music, writing, drawing, going for a walk when you feel like your head is all over the place, just partaking in any kind of activity that you enjoy and that you find eases your mind. You're so strong, five years clean is remarkable, keep at it as best you can and remind yourself that you have a right to be proud of your clean streak, and a right to hold onto it too!
|