Thank you both. I am trying very hard to control my reactions and emotions. My suicidal urges are quite intermittent... but its more like a normal reaction for me now a days, but I don't act on it.
My self harming has also decreased significantly, although sadly I still struggle with this and even recently had a few bad days!
I keep thinking that if I don't 'behave myself' then even if we do get pregnant I may have the baby taken away from me which would be horrific.
I need to get better so that I can continue on and have the life that I dream off x
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