You are too kind Alannah. I feel so distraught and fat and dirty. I've failed because I'm fat. I want to run and just lose myself in anorexia I need the fat to fall away. I need to reclaim my body and mind. This time last year things were hard but my weight was where I could cope and I was learning skills to manage I ****ded up too much fluid drowning everything now I'm heavier again the shame is tearing me apart. I don't think I can do this :( I'm a stupid fat dirty ****.
|