Yes but if I cannot get to appointments cos I'm too unwell, what am I supposed to do? They refuse to see me at home, and the last appt. they told me about at such short notice I couldn't arrange anyone to go with me except the friend who had let me down the time before - he let me down again. And if I can get to the appt on my own then they're never seeing me when things are bad (also it's not safe to go on my own cos I find them so difficult I need someone to talk to afterwards).
Also, it's not like I have regular appointments. I was re-referred by my GP back in February and didn't get an assessment until late May. They didn't think to actually let me know I had an appointment though... When I finally did see her in June, she said they wouldn't be taking me on or offering a CPN. She just said it was good I was seeing a therapist whilst also saying they think I'm unsuitable. She kept smiling whilst delivering her poison. I tried to explain that just by leaving the house I had to put a 'mask' on and explain things calmly so she'd never see the pain inside or believe me. So she said as a compromise she'd give me one more appt in a couple of weeks as I go up and down (well down and less down) so she could see a 'bad time' too. Then my friend let me down again. But she already said they'd not take me on, so it's nothing to do with missing appointments. I pointed out to her that I know people who NEVER show up to appts. and then get chased to hospital, so obviously missing appts. isn't an exclusion criteria! She refuses to tell me what's really going on.
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