I have schizoaffective as well. Bipolar type, in mania you can feel so euphoric, but mostly just end up with embarassment and sometimes guilt for actions you took when manic. Mixed episodes might be the most dangerous episodes for me because I am so wired with all this agitated energy but also depressed and I can become a serious danger to myself.
I hear several voices, that vary from telling me how much of a failure i am or that I am a piece of sh*t, then a commentary of what I am doing, I somtimes see things I call them the shadow people, I also see patterns in reflected light where there is no light, like strange floating things.
I've been in and out of hospital since the diagnosis, trying to get medications right.
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