Liddy, it can take longer than 8 appointments to start to trust someone. (Took me more than a year to completely trust my therapist, but there was a good basis from the beginning.) My therapist once told me that in order to trust someone we sometimes need to risk something in order to give the other a chance to prove that they are worthy of your trust. It totally make sense to me, it's like telling someone a secret without knowing if they'll keep it. If they keep it, then you can trust them with it. If they don't then naturally we don't trust them.
What do you have to lose by telling her at least a little bit about what is going on for you? What's the gain? That's what I used to ask myself, and usually the positives outweighed the negatives (simply because therapists aren't allowed to talk about stuff with someone else, except you signed a paper saying that you allow it)
I'm still doing good! It's so good to feel ok for a few days. There are a few small things like not being able to ride my bike and therefore having to walk everywhere. Otherwise I would be triggered too much. I guess I'm good at avoiding triggering situations as much as I need to.
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