Hi guys sorry to post yet again. I just can't cope with things I feel so fat and out of control. I feel so weird I've had lots of flashbacks and I just want to stop I feel like food violates me. I want to disappear. I see the ot tomorrow and I'm scared I will breakdown and she will see how hard it is or think I'm making it up I'm so confused with the whole cry wolf I don't know how to explain I'm more likely to withdraw and it's only recently I can be around so people can see what's going on. I need to punish myself and I don't know how long I can put it off. I'm sorry to post again x
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