Hi,
Thanks for the replies.
The reason why I said get stable back in hospital is because I have had a previous good experience at huntercombe roehampton. At the time it was horrible but looking back I realise how they managed to secure my safety and calm me down. I know it is very unlikely I would ever get sent there again. The local units aren't good and the last psych on the ward I was on even said they couldn't keep me safe!! My cc is happy to keep me in community at a high risk even with what I am doing to myself, which I have been trying to be really honest about. I can't say what because of rules.
With the benefits I just dnt feel I deserve them. I'm just of the attitude there are people worse off than me. My ocd makes it really hard to sit down and fill them in too. Cc has said he may be able to get someone to help me but it was mentioned once and never spoke about it again. I'm not the best at fighting for getting what I need, apart from when it comes to getting out of hospital I have become a bit of a pro!
My cc does say some weird stuff to me at times. Back in jan he said he couldn't understand why I was ready to give up as I basically wasn't old, hadn't tried every single med invented, and done years of therapy. But that just concreted my thoughts further that I had tried as I had been in services over half my life!
With regards to cassel he just thinks it will take up his time doing referrals and trying to get funding. Just makes me feel guilty. I am starting to think cassel is what I need, but I'm scared of admitting it to him! Generally he is brill, and I trust him but now I just feel bad about the whole thing.
Does anyone know how cassel manages risk? My s/h is bad at the mo and because of the thing I can't mention I'm worried they won't accept me.
Thanks nayy
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