Sorry to hear that you're having such a challenging time at the moment.
Why do you think you need to get stable back in hospital? I'm just surprised that you said that, when you also said that previous admissions haven't been helpful. What led to stopping your meds?
In terms of the paper work for benefits, could you ask your CC to help you fill them in? Or to be referred to a social worker, who can help with those kinds of things. And on the guilt point, as long as you are 100% honest on the forms, then if you get accepted for the benefits, it means you are entitled to them, and have no reason to feel guilty. And besides, would much prefer my taxes went on supporting you to get back on your feet than on paying Michael Gove to piss on the education system, so please don't feel guilty! I know it'll be a major faf filling them in, but being more financially secure could be a big weight off your mind, as you wouldn't have to feel pressured into moving back home, as you would be more able to support yourself.
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