I just feel I'm suffocating in my own flesh, like my body has no edges. I don't know how to cope I'm so pathetic. I let everyone down even the dog I ran out the house without walking her. Everything felt it was closing in. I picture him coming at me again and again and again. His words mix with the thoughts in my mind on a loop. I have no words for my fatness and filth I wish there was nothing left of me. I have therapy tomorrow but I haven't done my homework and I need to know. I want to reach out but there is nothing to grab onto . I'm so sorry I don't deserve to post.
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