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You said earlier that you had tried everything else. What have you tried?
And in the grand scheme of things, 1 year isn't that long to be seeing a therapist. I was with one therapist for 7 years, and I was in therapy before her, and I had a partial program before I went inpatient for the first time.

Why are you not sure about the partial program, but would prefer inpatient where your freedom is severely restricted and you don't get to choose when you leave, as opposed to being able to leave the day program and go to your own home and put the coping mechanisms you learn into place in the real world?

I don't know where you're located, but usually the way it is in the US is that you are there to be stabilized and then released as soon as your condition has medically improved. They don't keep anyone all that long, not even patients I've met who have tried to poison their children, for example: they got out in a week. You meet with the psychiatrist for about two minutes a day, meet a social worker for a one-on-one session once if they even get around to it, and the rest of the day is groups (which is what day programs are comprised of) and a whole lot of sitting around and waiting.

The day programs I've been in usually have a smaller amount of people in them, and therefore you get more than five minutes to say something about what's going on for you, as opposed to a room full of the entire unit trying to get in their say.

Hopefully this made some sense. I'm not trying to come across as harsh, I just think there are other things like other medications and maybe day hospital to consider before you make the leap all the way to inpatient.