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in_BPD_hell · 27-04-2014, 05:12 PM

Hi

So I've not posted properly for a while as I'm trying to not moan. I've not really self harmed now for about 4 months, which is great.

I have however been under so much pressure to 'be good'. Everyone keeps telling me I have too, like im a child, not a 29 year old woman. The thing is now the pressure is off me and im back at work ok with no-one watching me I am starting to struggle again, and the first thing in my head is 'I want to die'. I know that I don't mean this, but I just get so overwhelmed.

I am petrified of relapsing, and I know I am starting to spiral down again. I don't know what to do to stop myself... any tips?

Thanks you

27-04-2014, 05:12 PM	#1
in_BPD_hell Join Date: Nov 2013 Location: England I am currently:	I have to be 'good'... Hi So I've not posted properly for a while as I'm trying to not moan. I've not really self harmed now for about 4 months, which is great. I have however been under so much pressure to 'be good'. Everyone keeps telling me I have too, like im a child, not a 29 year old woman. The thing is now the pressure is off me and im back at work ok with no-one watching me I am starting to struggle again, and the first thing in my head is 'I want to die'. I know that I don't mean this, but I just get so overwhelmed. I am petrified of relapsing, and I know I am starting to spiral down again. I don't know what to do to stop myself... any tips? Thanks you