Thanks Kerry that means a lot. Just feel n bits. I want to scrub the dirt away and I feel so out of control. I see the trauma therapy lady but not eating disorders this week. It's pathetic I know but the eating disorders appointment was helping me to process the trauma stuff and I feel I should cope it's only one week for gods sake but I feel lost without that space to process it. I'm just so anxious about food I was meant to put one meal back in as only on evening meal and snacks but can't even get the bloody bowl out the cupboard never mind pour a portion out, add milk and make a start! I don't want to jeopardise my treatment either. Sorry I'm waffling hopefully being out to the pub with my mum will help. I hope you are doing ok too. Xx
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