Hello
I forgot I'd made this thread so apologies for waking up such an old one.
Things have been difficult recently. I've had to defer uni through no fault of my own.
I told my ocunsellor about the stuff and she was very kind and understanding which is not what I expected.
I haven't been out much and havent been changing from my PJs. I was watching a film the other day that I've seen 459072309852234 times before, but this time was different. It has SA in it and it triggered a memory I'd forgotten about. I ended up in A&E with more stitches than I care to count.
The day after I was playing with my friends dog. I'd given her a pigs ear and she tried to bite me so I took it off her and told her "bad girls don't get nice things". It triggered more memories of my mum (who died 6 years ago and was also very abusive, although neglectful rather than sexual) who used to say this to me all the time. I was in a&e that night along with a referral to plastics...
Things are still very weird. I've been signed off sick from my job. I have a meeting at uni tomorrow to find out what will happen next. I'm very scared and frightened but am cuddling my guinea pigs to seek comfort. I have also been to the park to look at the ducklings a couple of times too.
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