[Wellingtons]

Just finished seeing my CPN, which had a very surprising outcome! I've never thought of myself as having OCD, I'm not one for cleaning or checking. However I have certain obsessional thoughts, which she calls fixations, which I dwell on and obsess about over and over.

ATM it's cooking and food, almost every day I get myself worked up to the point of sweating thinking about what am I going to cook, do we have it in, will it defrost, will I be able to cook it, are there the right ingredients, will I have time, am I sure I have it in, will the recipe work etcetc. I'm diagnosed bipolar I, my last 'episode' which threatened to spill into mania was obsessing over Richard III, which I think I must've posted about on here enough to annoy everybody. I also do a lot of counting and play word games in my head with every sentence I say or hear someone say, I've memorised my mothers old bookcase (which she got rid of when I was 10) and the layout of the book titles, and I fit words into those titles, counting how many words it takes to fit the word in. So for example the word "pragmatic" would fit into books with titles with DIY, WORLD and OF in them (adjusted to lowercase). DI=PR, D=A, Y=G, W=M, OF=AT, L=I, O=C.

I have other obsessions and fixations which I've always just put down to general anxiety.

So yes. Struck me completely left field.