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I am utterly disgusted with the way that doctor responded to you.

Firstly,
it is out of order, plain rude, and awful behavior, particularly for a professional, so called one at least.

Secondly,
he is obliged to care for your health, whether it be self inflicted or not, he is to be responsible for all patients, and care for their well being and their health, medical in particular.

Thirdly,
to not do a blood test when you have told him you have been overdosing and have potential damage which could lead to organ failure and death in the long term, is beyond irresponsible, malpractice, unprofessional, and plain down right disgusting behavior of his.

At the very least, he should have done a basic blood test to check your organs, levels, and other things that could be potentially affected by the overdoses you have been taking.

I am sorry you have received such awful care from this "doctor".

Is it possible to move to another practice and see another GP?

I know what it is like to have just one GP at your practice, my practice is the same as I am on a small estate, and only have one GP, one temporary GP for when the GP is sick/away, and one part time nurse, making appointments very difficult, and if the GP is crap at their care over you, then you don't have anyone else to transfer your case over to, as that GP is the only one to go to.

However, it is possible to get a second opinion if you are able to move to a different practice and see someone else.

Normally, GP's are SUPPOSED to CARE about your health, medical and mental, and they are SUPPOSED to be responsible, professional,
and in this case,
actually bother to do a blood test,
as the potential for damage here is quite high,
and he SHOULD HAVE realized this,
and done everything he can to make sure that,
at the very least,
your medical health is okay.

And in the long run, if you continue to overdose, it isn't a matter of "if" there will be damage, it is a matter of "when" there will be damage, so the fact he doesn't do anything about this, is disgusting.

I understand having crap doctors, professionals, etc, who really know how to make you feel even worse, make you feel like you don't matter, and aren't worth anything whatsoever, aren't important, and everything else.

Just because they have a medical degree, does not necessarily mean they are good doctors, nor suited for the job they are to perform.

Unfortunately, many doctors are very ignorant and arrogant towards mental health conditions/difficulties, and by extension, the same regarding behaviors that are linked to mental health, like self harming, overdosing, cutting, etc.

Many doctors either are plain just nasty when it comes to mental health patients, and / or they do not have the proper training when it comes to mental health.

This is still a very large and difficult problem in the world today, and although people are trying to make a difference and prevent these things from happening, it still does happen.

I'm just sorry you were on the receiving end of this.

I hope you can get a second opinion on this, and change practices,
just because you have mental health problems and engage in self harming behaviors,
DOES NOT give ANYONE the right to treat you the way that doctor did,
or anyone else for that matter,
and it DOES NOT mean you are any less entitled and deserving of help and support.

Are you able to discuss what has happened with the people you see?
Your social worker/the other professionals you see?

Perhaps they could help you with what happened, and help you get a blood test to check everything is okay medically, and then proceed to help and support you mentally with this difficulty with taking overdoses.

I completely understand the hesitation to not want to give up ALL behaviors that are self damaging.

I myself struggle with this too, massively.

If I am unable to do one behavior, I swap to another, and then when I become unable to do that behavior, I then swap to another, and so on, and so forth,
which makes it a very vicious cycle,
because instead of dealing and coping with what makes you feel you have to engage in the behaviors in the first place,
instead,
you swap to another behavior,
and avoid dealing with the real problem.

And I understand not wanting to do this, to avoid dealing with WHY you engage in the behaviors, and to focus on how to stop ALL behaviors, and cope in other ways, and to get right down to what really is going on for you.

It is a very long, rocky, difficult, at times, near-impossible road to getting better, but it is beyond worth it, and it must be better than what you are going through right now, surely?

I hope you are okay, and are able to do the above suggestions.
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