My GP told me that Lorazepam should never be prescribed when I told her that I have some and that I always carry it around with me, and that I barely use it (maybe 3 times in the last year). So I completely understand your situation!
Sadly, GPs don't always know a lot about mental health things and they probably just can't imagine being in a situation like you. You are fighting to tackle your anxiety, but you know that sometimes skills aren't enough so you are taking the diazepam with you just to be safe. I don't think there is anything wrong with that, and since you aren't taking it that much it shouldn't be a concern of your GP anyway.
As for going without it, I think that it is something that YOU have to want. Only then it is going to work anyway, because if you aren't taking it along with you for someone else it is like stopping to sh for someone else. Doesn't work well as far as I know. Wanting to go without it would be a positive step in your recovery, but as Snow White already said it is probably easier to do that in small steps. Like not taking it with you, if you know that it wont be a long time or if you know that the chances of a panic attack are very small.
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