Thank you.
So it's more like learned behaviour? Pattern of thinking?
I read somewhere that children with BPD are difficult, which would mean that I caused my parents to respond how they did. That would mean that I was the trigger, rather than them.
It's so hard because I analyse every situation after experiencing it and always end up thinking that the other person will now hate me. It's like a black fog that surrounds me and traps me and it is true fact and, even if I try to think about what evidence I have to support that opinion, I can't shake it out. It makes me want to never see anyone ever again. I have absolutely no idea how to stop it.
People make those with BPD out to be detestable, attention-seeking human beings. I don't understand why people do that. Whenever I read anything about the diagnosis, that's always what my thoughts say.
Apparently I am getting too caught up in over-thinking all of this but I can't stop thinking and I need this straight in my head somehow.
I'm glad that you don't think you're fundamentally flawed anymore.
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