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Muruluisku · 14-02-2014, 06:41 PM

Thank you Katie *hug* and Epicene for helping me understand what it is.

I feel better now that I know the "complex" part doesn't mean that I'm a hopeless case, and that these things can be worked at... If I'm strong and brave enough... I guess while I'm waiting I can try to find my courage to say yes to therapy when a slot is offered to me.

I know you guys think that I should go , and I guess it would seem sensible to go... But I have managed okay for so long, I just need to be able to sleep and not go into vicious cycle of nightmares and flashbacks like I sometimes do...and stop doing the unhealthy things.... It's hard to imagine my life any better than it is, cause its mostly good in the day time, and Im so grateful for it. I don't want to risk it by being consumed by the bad things ALL the time if I let myself think or feel them in therapy. What if I go crazy and loose all the good in my life if I start therapy?

<3: Muru

14-02-2014, 06:41 PM	#4
Muruluisku Join Date: Jan 2014	Thank you Katie hug and Epicene for helping me understand what it is. I feel better now that I know the "complex" part doesn't mean that I'm a hopeless case, and that these things can be worked at... If I'm strong and brave enough... I guess while I'm waiting I can try to find my courage to say yes to therapy when a slot is offered to me. I know you guys think that I should go , and I guess it would seem sensible to go... But I have managed okay for so long, I just need to be able to sleep and not go into vicious cycle of nightmares and flashbacks like I sometimes do...and stop doing the unhealthy things.... It's hard to imagine my life any better than it is, cause its mostly good in the day time, and Im so grateful for it. I don't want to risk it by being consumed by the bad things ALL the time if I let myself think or feel them in therapy. What if I go crazy and loose all the good in my life if I start therapy? <3: Muru
Muruluisku Join Date: Jan 2014	Muruluisku - my big sister's pet name for me, she also calls me her little shadow because I'm quiet and followed her everywhere when I was little. I may be quiet, but happy to listen, hold your hand and hold on, riding the storms with you.