Feels like it. Am falling apart and can't go over. Last time someone came over they were just like 'take your meds and have you had anything to drink' for a start I am alcohol physically fricking dependant and have only had enough to stop the shakes and b does that negate my need for emotional support? I am so close to cutting myself to shreds but a) that doesn't matter because no one gives a **** and b) because I have had 1 drink this evening to stop the shakes and been sober all ****ing day bar 1 in the morning which was fricking hard, I don't deserve support so yeah...go figure.
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