i'm currently doing different types of therapy 4 days a week plus regular inpatient therapy. i do something called schema therapy in a group on monday, art therapy on tuesday, individual psychologist on thursday and individual schema therapy with a psychologist on friday, wednesday, saturday and sunday i do nothing because i cant hold down a job. i spend 4 weeks out of hospital doing this every week then i spend 1 sometimes 2 weeks in hospital doing the groups they offer to inpatients as well as having nursing staff and my psychiatrist see me. sometimes i dont last the full 4 weeks out and end up in sooner then planned and sometimes i stay a lot longer then 2 weeks like after an overdose or self harm or suicide attempt.
i have severe complex PTSD and borderline personality disorder and major depression. everyone tells me i need to do long term intensive therapy with constant support but they dont offer that as an inpatient and i cant do it as an outpatient because im considered at too high a risk of hurting myself during the hardest parts which are inevitable. they are basically saying they cant help me here so i feel lost and like people are just giving up on me because our healthcare system doesnt offer the treatment i need.
it makes me feel lost and i dont know who i can reach out to or where i can get treatment that will actually make me get to a point where i feel like my life is worth living.
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