Iv tried to calm my self down and my boyf has but last night my son was in the bath and all i was focused on was finding a way to kill my self and my boyf had taken all the sharp things away from me and shut me in the bedroom. it doesnt feel like its me though it mad, cause i would never think ov killing my self or cutting my self and my son is a prioity, i hysterically cry and i seriously cant explain how i feel but its like something evil has taken over my body and i wish it never happens but it does. I was screamion at my boyf last night to give me something sharp and he never and i was so glad afterwards when i finally felt myself again. i think there is more to it than stress, cause im seriously worried that im guna end up doin soemthing silly when i have these 'outburts' its like i dont care who i hurt at the time, and that totally is not me!
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