In my experience, self-harming not-good-enough makes you feel even crappier than you did. Is it worth it, in hospital to steal moments of, in your eyes, self harm that isn't enough?
You know how short beds you; you wouldn't get one if you didn't need AND deserve it. You need to let people help, and I know it's hard, I do, but you need to let them anyway.
You mention needing to self harm a lot. What do you think you need about self harm; what does it give you?
I think, in light of your plans, it is a good idea that you aren't discharged, and why you are IP right now.
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