Zopiclone was good. Will def consider that again rather than lorazepam.
Didn't get up until 2pm cause I literally just felt too depressed, like it was pointless? But finally did and showered and have done my nails and hair and even put some foundation and mascara on. Because tonight I'm going out. It's our choirs Christmas concert so I'm going to watch. They're doing it for the time to change charity because of me, and with my husband running it and both my parents being in it and me not being there apparently the run up to this concert has frequently been very emotional. No one knows I'm going either apart from husband and family, so I'm super nervous. My sister and her famy are going too so I'll be sitting with them. I don't want to cry, but I have a feeling there maybe quite a few tears. Numb numb numb.
Not eaten today, but seeing as I don't want to pass out there I've asked my Mum to bring me a sandwich to eat on the way.
I'm so nervous. Don't know whether to have lorazepam or not?? Urgh.
Ward round tomorrow, need I try and work out how I feel and what I want...
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