Until after tomorrow and then I can cut properly.
Though I've actuslly done good tonight I think! I stayed out my room all night, sat with the guys again, they managed to convince me to come inside after s few hours and then I got them all doing gymnastics which staff thought was hilarious. Though I've had hold of a staple all night and small scratches. My head won't shut up, I'm agitated. Everyone else was sleepy, only a few still up and me still wired. I don't want lorazepam because as it wares off I get angry, so I went to the nurse and we decided on me having a zopiclone, which I took. And I have him the staple.
So yeah, I did good?
I'm worried that I give people the wrong impression. Guys. There's now, 3 young ones that hang around me. One in his 50s that sits too close and looks at me and wants to 'look after me' and then 2 middle agers who I think actually do want to look after me. But I feel weird. Uncomfortable? Can I not just be friends with them? It's getting hard work with one and I'm not sure what to do...
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